stealing

someone dropped their wallet in class today

my friend picked it up and then asked me if i wanted it.

i said yes.

i knew it was the wrong thing to do, and i knew i would probably get caught.

but i said yes.

i ditched the wallet in the bathroom and hid the cards that were inside by someone else's desk.

i pocketed the 4 bucks that was in there.

so the kid who lost his wallet realizes he lost it, and starts looking for it.

he told the teacher and she called down the SRO 

he checked my stuff and let me go.

i thought i was clear, but at lunch, later, a friend told me that they found out i did it.

i started to sweat and shake.

in the beginning of 4th period they called me down, and on the way to the office

i saw the kid whose wallet it was.

i felt so bad, 

i just wanted to convulse right there on the linoleum, vomiting all over myself.

he  started walking the other way when he saw me.

that hurt even worse.

in the office, the SRO looked at me cause he knew i knew that he knew i had done it.

i felt even worse.

so he talked to me, with an AP to serve as witness, and i just told him i did it.

he had me fill out a report paper with an apology.

the words i wrote felt empty,

unable to truly describe just how awful and sorry i felt.

the SRO let me off with less than a slap on the wrist:

a lecture.

he told me about how he didn't judge me by this, how he knows im a good kid.

typical things i hear from most adults.

but then he said "you did something stupid. everyone does stupid stuff. even i do stupid stuff. i do stupid stuff everyday."

i know, lame, cliche, whatever.

but thats what he really said, and it really hit me hard.

its what kept me from crying in front of everyone in the office.

i shook his hand and walked back to class.